I really can’t believe I am here already. I can’t believe that I am starting to think about going back to work and thinking about colour schemes for Isla’s first birthday bash. In a sense, I feel like the time has gone by incredibly fast and for some reason I can’t even remember Isla being a newborn and holding a tiny 7 pound baby in my arms. I just can’t remember her ever being that small. It’s a weird sense of time when you become a parent. I have always been told this but now I realize how true it is. For every month that feels like it is just going on and on and on, there are 3 month’s that have quickly past it. Life is precious and short and now more than ever I want every day to be magical.
August 27th, 2014. The day I go back to work. The day I am secretly dreading. Not because I don’t love my job, because I do. I love the people I work with and see every day and I love what I do but I don’t know how I will make it through 9 hours not seeing my baby girl?! I don’t know how any of you momma’s out there do it but man I give you all props. I am trying to get myself mentally prepared for this big transition. I am rearranging our morning to get use to getting another human life ready for the day instead of just my own. I am trying to get out of the house a bit more and away from Isla for a few hours at a time so my heart won’t ache as much when I am not around her. Most importantly, I am trying to figure out any gosh darn way I possibly can to be able to stay home with her. It’s tough and I have not come up with too many ideas…well not any ideas that provide me with any sort of income! In all honesty though, I know it will work out. I know we will transition into a smooth routine and I know that once I start back at work I will remember why I love coming into work everyday and I am sure that some days I will really enjoy having my own time again. Maybe in the future I will be able to be a stay at home mom but for now, I will just have to soak up the moments we do have together as a family and really make them count every day!
On a lighter note, I am in full 1st birthday planning mode! My husband is probably sick of hearing me say that but I am so excited! If there is one thing I have learned about being a new mom is that things are never as easy as they seem. I can’t just take out an art project anymore and expect to have it done in a couple of hours. I have to factor in feedings, changes, crawling around all over the floor, spit-ups, blowouts, crying fits and just about anything that can put a damper on your glue gun and crafting. Things that use to take a day, now take a week so I figure I should start the planning and crafting early. I am doing a lot of DIY for the big day and I will need the next couple of months to prepare.
We didn’t really choose a theme perse for Isla’s birthday because let’s face it, she is a bit to little to really let us know certain things that she loves. Maybe next year but this year we are focusing on specific colours and what Isla really means to us and how she makes us feel…and also celebrating the fact that Dana and I came out alive during our first year of being parents! Yay for us!
Here’s what I am envisioning for the party.
How did you handle going back to work? Any tips or tricks you would like to share with me? I need all the help I can get! Please comment below.