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I Am Grateful

I have been really struggling the last week and I haven’t been feeling like myself. Every once in a while I go through this bout of unhappiness and I hate when it happens and even more I hate myself for letting it happen. I allow myself to over think things that are going on in my life.  I get really sad that I live 2 and a half hours away from my family. I miss them all the time and crave the family dinners, talks and support that they are all so great at giving. I get really sad that my husband works so much and we can never spend any good quality time together. I get upset and start to feel sorry for myself that I can’t make plans to really do anything for me or with my friends because my husband works way to much. I can’t just shut my door to my makeshift office in the basement and make necklaces or write blog posts for hours on end because I have a daughter to look after and once again I am alone and can’t have a few moments to myself. Mostly, I just feel lonely and I know that I shouldn’t. I know that my life is amazing. I am here on this earth and I really shouldn’t be complaining about anything. So what do I do about the slump I’m in?! I blog about it and focus on all of the wonderful things that I have in my life. I wanted to share some of them with you. Maybe they will help you if you are struggling one day.

I am grateful for my parents coming to visit us on the weekend. It’s like they knew I needed them. I am so happy that they make the trip down so many times to see us. I love how when Isla sees them she runs to them laughing and smiling with her arms stretched out for a hug. I love how they took us shopping, bought us some groceries and diapers and new books for Isla’s collection. I love how my dad asked if it was ok if he could cut the lawn for Dana before he knew how busy he was and that he may not get time to do it. I love how I am blessed with an amazing sister who FaceTimes with her niece and always lets her know how much she loves her. I love how our whole family of aunts, uncles, cousins and grandparents are always excited to be around each other and would use any excuse to just hangout. I love that really, in hindsight, there is only a quick drive to my parents place instead of a plane ride. Mostly I love that just because we don’t live down the road from each other, there is not a day that goes by that we don’t text, or a picture isn’t sent to someone just saying “Hello” and wishing them a great day.

I am so very grateful to be a mommy to the most amazingly sweet little girl I know. A girl who makes me want to be a better person every day. I love how she makes me smile every morning, no matter how little sleep I have had. I am grateful that she is happy and healthy and continues to learn and grow everyday. I love how she says “mommy” and runs to me when I pick her up after work. I love how her eyes get big when she discovers something new and I am grateful for the love she has for other people.

I am grateful to be blessed with a wonderful husband that works his butt off for us and never (barely) complains. I love how he is with our daughter and makes her feel safe and loved. I love how he asks her for kisses, has daddy daycare’s days just the two of them and I love how he tickles her that she laughs and screams with delight so uncontrollably. Most of all I love the fact that when he is home, he is all in and ready to be a husband and a father.

I am grateful for a roof over my head, healthy and fresh foods, a backyard for my daughter to play in and flowers in my garden. I am grateful for a street lined with beautiful trees, neighbours that always want to help and a daycare provider that lives right across the street. I am thankful to have a job that provides me with a paycheck, a car to get me there and paid vacations to spend time with my family.
I am grateful to have passions and hobbies that I can’t get enough of. I love that I have this blog and that I get to share stories like this with you. I enjoy my creative side and learning new things. I am thankful for church, the gospel and my Lord and Saviour. He would never want me feeling unhappy or sad, so the next time I am feeling sorry for myself, having a terrible day or pissed off because my cable is cutting in and out, I am going to read this back to myself and remember what is really important. Will I remember the frustrating times? Probably not, but I will remember the beautiful red sunset, the man who held the door for me and the first time my daughter tells me she loves me.

You can find this print here.

What are you grateful for?

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